Its amazing how much motherhood has changed me.
I've found myself just absolutely treasuring every moment I get with my son but also holding on tightly to the moments of my former life, we'll call it "life before baby" that I took for granted.
For example, hopping in the shower is not as easy as it once was. You're really lucky if you get to bathe once a day. It depends on the baby and how his schedule is and whether or not you feel comfortable leaving him alone while he's napping. My little muchkin is a wiggleworm and it make me nervous to have him anywhere but a crib when he's sleeping. There also the chance that while you're enjoying the shower the baby waked up and you can't hear him because of the deliciously warm water coming out of that faucet. You also have to weigh the fact that as soon as you get out of the shower and get dressed there's about a 99% chance that you will get peed/pooped/spit up on in that next hour. But still, before I had Caderyn I was never really into long showers. I was more the get up, shower quickly and go person. Now, I find myself using up all of the hot water or washing and conditioning my hair two to three times just so I can savour the moment I get without having to worry.
Another thing I value so much more- getting to go shopping. Yeah, it just doesn't happen with a new baby. First of all, it takes an hour to get everything ready to go and then you have to remember to feed baby before you go so he doesn't scream and cry and, if you're breastfeeding, your boobs don't leak in public. Then there's the factor that you have to load all of the stuff and baby in the car. If you don't have anyone going out with you then there's the fear of driving somewhere and literally not being able to see your child until you get there. The car seat is turned away from you and the expensive backseat mirror you bought just fell down again for the umpteenth time. If you do make it to your shopping destination you then have to unload all of your stuff and the baby and get in to the store. By the time you do all of that, you discover that you now only have an hour to get home before you have to feed the baby again so you rush through the store and realize ten minutes after you've left the store that you've forgotten to buy the pack of diapers.
One of the things I probably value the most when I get it- sleep. I don't think I need to elaborate too much on this topic since its the most common loss new parents struggle with. I will say that my mother-in-law was chatting about how tired she was yesterday because she'd only gotten 6 hours of sleep the night before. My amazed reply to her was, "In a row?" We both found this very funny.
When I do get the chance to do any of these things or go out with friends or on a date with my husband I've found myself starting to value them so much more. Time with my son is priceless but so is taking an uninterrupted 20 minute shower. Ahhhhh.