I never really paid much attention to all of the fighting in the world before he joined. I was a bit apathetic- cruel word, I know. I just didn't think it would ever affect me, living in my comfortable little safehaven of Montana where the only thing I usually have to worry about is the snow in March, those blasted "evil" deer that take over my yard or perhaps getting eaten by a bear in Yellowstone.
Since Jeff has joined and been gone, I've paid more attention to what's going on in the world. Iraq...I don't know if that will ever be solved. The earthquake and tsunami in Japan...tragic. I watched some videos of the tsunami yesterday that made my heart hurt.
My recent focus has been on Libya and the violence and fighting that has started to escalate there.
Since the U.S. and other European countries have become invovled my heart beats a little faster just thinking that my husband could be called to assist in this overseas campaign. I guess it never really sunk in until now.
I'm not afraid to admit I'm frightened. I've spent three months without my husband. It has been very hard, but I know he's been working hard and safe. But what about the possibility of him being taken away from me for a year or more and never knowing if he's safe? It stresses this gal out a little.
I know this is what we signed up for and I know this is something wonderful for our family and Jeff is doing something that only 1% of the population does. He's serving his country.
But I would never ever want to lose him. He's my rock, my strength, my partner, my best friend.
I know many, many families have gone through this kind of seperation and, sadly, some have even gone through the loss of their loved one. I guess I've just been living behind a pink colored veil for so long now the thought of Jeff being called to serve never crossed my mind.
If he is called, it will be hard. But, it will be wonderful for him and our family to serve the United States of America. If he is called, I will probably be a basetcase. If he is called it will be a big change in our lives.
I just worry about these things now. I pay attention to what's going on in the world now.
Which is probably a good thing.
P.S. My neck DOES NOT look like this. Gross