Monday, April 30, 2012


Our weekend was really nice. Despite my  having to work Friday night and Saturday, the husband and I got in a date (kind of- it was work related and i had to work after), we got in lots of Caderyn time, we played with neighbors and had an impromptu dinner party, we watched Crazy, Stupid Love and both Jeff and I loved it. There was laughing, hiking, eating, and sleeping.
It was a good one.
I liked it.

Super Caderyn 
What happens to naughty little dogs who roll in deer pee.

How dejected said naughty little dogs look after their baths. 
My guys going hiking. 
The FABULOUS "porn room" I looked at in the house my parents are renting for the summer. Nothing updated (except for the electronics) since the 1970s. The wall paper is gold and red velvet, yes. One half of the wall is all mirrors and those are some creepy porcelain dolls. My parents are going to love it!

A surprise visit from Papa Swan as he and my grandparents drove the motor home back from Arizona.

A much, much needed nap.

Thursday, April 26, 2012


Photography courtesy of Lisa. Check her out. Book her! She's amazing!
Don't lie, you all are freaking out right now because *gasp* its not the typical bathroom mirror photo shoot. HAH! I got you good.
Truth is, I'm actually thankful Lisa quickly snapped these photos as I picked my son up from her house. I haven't had a second this week to look at myself in a mirror.

How far along? 32 week MONSTER belly!.
Weight gain/loss/stretch marks: I asked my doctor yesterday, "Why am I SO big? I'm watching what I eat and working out more than in my first pregnancy." This was all said in a very whiny voice. She measured me, felt around my belly and announced, "You're right on track. You usually carry your second one differently and I think this boy will be very tall like his brother." I don't know if this was all true, but it made me feel better. I will stick to this one piece of my vanity right now, I DON'T have a double chin yet.
Maternity clothes? Yep. Looking tighter each day.
Sleep? Meh. I've been up between 5 and 530 a.m. each morning because my brain won't SHUT UP.
Best moment(s) this week? Caderyn felt his brother kicking for the first time and I almost cried it was so sweet. Feeling baby move in general has been great. Last week I had a scare. The baby completely stopped moving. Yes, I'm serious. So I waited and waited the whole week hoping something would change and it didn't so I called the doctor and they ordered me in immediately. It took two ultrasound ladies and the doctor all together in the room to find my little guy. This was so scary! The whole time the doctor was saying, "If we don't find him in (however many minutes) we'll need to admit you right to OB." and yes, I was freaking out and trying really hard not to cry. But they found him. He was wedged up under my left ribs pretty much as high as he could possibly get. They had to move him from under there (not very comfortable) and as soon as he was out he went crazy and I cried a little in relief. Yes, I'm emotional. Then the doctor gave me a sticker because he said I held it together really well. Okay...So anyways its really nice to feel baby moving again this week. If EVER you think your baby isn't moving as much as usual or you just feel like something is different don't hesitate to call your doctor!
Food cravings: Juice. Like Capri Sun.
Gender: A little smurf. Not a smurfette.
Belly button in or out? I actually think my belly button will turn out in the next two to three weeks. I just don't know how to feel about this since I've always had an innie. I'm feeling a little violated.
Movement? See the above story on movement. I've had lots of movement this week. He's whacked me pretty good a couple of times and I've had to stop and catch my breath. He also wakes me up pretty regularly around 3:30 a.m. and then between 5 and 5:30 a.m.
What I miss? Zumba. Working out. Beer. Cute outfits and heels. Not worrying that I'm going to fart if I bend over to . Oh yes. I went there.

What I'm looking forward to: Finishing the baby space and Caderyn's room. Soon, hopefully.
Weekly wisdom: Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.
Anything else?
  • I've been having some Braxton Hicks contractions this week.
  • Baby is still the size of a head of lettuce. I must have a monster head of lettuce growing in my belly!
  • Baby has reached a milestone in that his immune system is now able to provide protection from mild infections.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012


Someone hates springtime. Simply loathes it. Can't stand it. Wishes it were snowing.

Just kidding

Tuesday, April 24, 2012


Yesterday, I took a half day off from work and spent some quality time with my buddy.
After a busy lunch time, we both lay curled together on his bed talking and singing songs.
Caderyn's brother, Gabriel, likes it when we sing and usually makes his presence known.
My belly started moving and shaking and Caderyn actually noticed.
As my right side moved and bounced as his little brother-to-be joined in on the fun, Caderyn placed his hand on my belly and felt a good strong kick from his brother.
It shocked him I think. This being the actual first time Caderyn has felt his brother moving in my tummy. He quickly pulled his hand back and asked a stream of questions.
"What was that?" That was your brother, Gabriel.
"What is he doing?" He is moving and saying hello.
"Is he saying hello to me?" Yes, he likes it when you talk and sing.
"Is he born yet?" No not yet. He still has to grow some more.
"And then he will come out and meet me?" Yes, he will. He's very excited to meet you.
"I'm happy to meet him. I will love him."

As a mother, I find myself experiencing moments where I can actually feel my heart swell with emotion and love. It feels as though my whole chest is filled to the brim. It just overcomes me and makes me get a little sentimental. This was one of those moments.

Recently, I've been thinking a lot about what it will be like sharing myself with two children. I've worried that Caderyn will miss out on love and not get the attention and direction he needs. Or vice versa for Gabriel.
I think most parents go through this. 
All I needed to scare away those silly thoughts was that one moment together on his bed with his hand on my belly.  
Caderyn will be a wonderful big brother.
He talks all the time about taking care of Gabriel and keeping him safe.

He talks about reading to him and playing trucks.
I know there will be moments when Caderyn will be frustrated with his little brother and will want nothing to do with him, as all siblings do at one time.
But, I also know that our Gabriel will be the luckiest boy in the whole world having a big brother as kind, funny, and enthusiastic as Caderyn.
They may not always like each other, but they will always love each other.
I will make sure of that.

Being a parent, you see parts of your former self fade away.
The former me who used to go out on weekends and didn't think twice about buying a new outfit. The former me who really only thought about ME.
Now, my life involves my husband and my children and making sure they are taken care of.
The former me is still there, just in a different sense. The former me now likes spending time at home and making sure everything is in order. The former me doesn't really think about me all that much anymore, but rather focuses on my children and husband and how they are doing and what they need. The former me loves just sitting and holding my oldest son for the few seconds he will allow, or the feeling of my youngest kick impatiently inside of me.
This person I have become has so much love to give and I am reassured each and every day that sharing myself and my love with a growing family will not be challenging at all, but more rewarding and enriching than anything I have ever done in my life.
I don't see my love as having a limit anymore, it is endless and encompassing for all the boys in my life.
They will never, for one second, feel like I don't love them enough.

I felt a little bit of that overwhelming Mom love yesterday. I felt it delivered by my youngest son's foot as it connected to my oldest sons hand through my skin.
I felt the bond they already share as brothers and the love for both just filled me to the brim with happiness.
I can't wait to have this baby and watch our family grow!


Here are the last of the pictures from our trip. After the museum and train park, we just kind of hung around the house a lot.

No nice picture with Papa, someone needs to get busy looking at stuff!
Caderyn's favorite part of the museum was this waterfall display that flooded.
Checking out the dinosaurs with Mimi and Grandpa
Please note: My son would look at each display for a total of three seconds and then be on to the next one.
Why the long face?
The turtle room.  Ha ha, Caderyn has a funny face.
Family joke. 90 million years ago this was ALL under water.
The activity room was also up there on Caderyn's list.


Next was the train park
Waiting for the train

All aboard
Oh, hey ladies!
The model train building. Basically this whole building was full of moving model trains and villages.
Playing on the trolley. Caderyn made a friend!
Cars is WAY better than Cars 2.
Psh. What the heck are you talking about?
Both of them ROCK!

Monday, April 23, 2012


Just two short weeks ago we were in Phoenix. *Sigh*
Easter morning we made Caderyn stay upstairs until we were all ready for church. Then we let him go downstairs to see what the Easter Bunny had brought him. After church we brunched and then let Caderyn find hidden eggs.

Waiting so patiently at the top of the stairs.
Lots of goodies!

Gramps being goofy.
Eggs all over the yard.
Please note the colors in my Dad's clothing selections...

Saturday, April 21, 2012


Hope everyone has a great weekend.
This is what Lucy will probably be doing.

Friday, April 20, 2012


Our day after the Egg Hunt didn't end. Oh no. We did oh so much more! So much that I had to have a separate post just of the second half.
After the Egg Hunt we booked it over to the Deer Valley airport to watch the airplanes land and take off before having a delicious brunch at their Airport Cafe. This is probably one of my most favorite places to eat in Phoenix. No joke.
Their Spanish Omelet is SO GOOD!
Walking with Papa into the airport and looking at all of the cactus.
Look, it's a bloomin' cactus.
Oh yum!

After the airport Caderyn had his mind set on playing in the pool. And, that's just what he did for about three hours.

Who can spot the shark photo bomb?

After pool, nap time and dinner, Caderyn was ready to color eggs. He stripped himself down to the pull-up so he wouldn't get dirty and then showed us all his muscles while waiting for the egg dye to be ready.

The Mimi hid some Easter eggs so he could practice finding them. Caderyn kept cheating and looking at where she was putting them.
I had yet another impromptu bathroom photo shoot.
Duck face!

Once the eggs were colored and baths were done, Papa set up a movie screen outside and we all watched Cars 2.

It was such a great day and night!!