Friday, October 26, 2012

IPHONE LATELY 10.20-10.26

1. My little Gibbers with pink antibiotic medicine all over his shirt.  
2. Celebrating my friend's birthday at Jakers.  
3. Maybe she will notice me if I lay right on her foot. 
4. Caderyn's decorating touches in his grandparent's house. He probably took those things down and rearranged them a hundred times last weekend. And, for those of you who don't know, that should say "Trick or Treat." 
5. My father in law is a nurse and he had this on his desk. It made me laugh.  
6. Cake decorating tips make excellent monster claws.  
7. Walked by this on my way to bed. Awkward.  
8. He just wakes up SO happy every morning! 
9. And then it snowed...before Halloween.  
10. My morning sunshine.  
11. Someone discovered their feet in the tub. He held his feet like this the rest of the bath.

Thursday, October 25, 2012


Strep throat is running rampant in our little circle right now. Both boys and myself are on antibiotics. Friends have it, friends of friends have it. Sheesh!
Even my dog is on antibiotics...but hers are for her little bottom. Apparently my dog has some version of irritable bowel syndrome that will require her to need antibiotics when she starts to get the shoot poops...if you know what I mean.
It's a good thing I LOVE her, oh I do, I do.
In honor of the fact that I'm kind of boring, I thought I would WOW you with trivia about myself.
Because, you know, I can.
1. I am a morning person. Through and through. I love getting up in the mornings and I'm usually pretty happy about it. So are my kids.
2. My one selfish thing that I do right now is get up super early and eat my breakfast and drink coffee by myself. It has to be by myself. If Caderyn is up for some reason I will usually put him back to bed or let him crawl into my bed. If Gabriel is up I will usually nurse him and then him put him back down as well. That is my special time in the morning where I mentally prepare for the day.
3. I love photobombing pictures.
4. I can fro my hair out. Yes, like the afro. I have such thick and coarse curly hair, its like, already halfway there on any given day.
5. I would choose reading over watching television.
6. I make a mean pot of spaghetti, homemade pizza, chocolate chip cookies and banana bread.
7. I would like to learn how to make my own bread. Who wants to teach me?
8. I take really good care of my teeth. I've only had two cavities in my 27 years and my first cavity was when I was 22 years old. I cried when the dentist told me I had one because I was so disappointed in myself.
9. I have an immense amount if patience at this time in my life. I'm even surprised at how much I have.
10. I love talking about sports.
11. Earrings are my staple accessory.
12. My favorite Disney movie of all time is Mulan. I can pretty much sing you all of the words from "Be a Man" on cue.
13. My favorite Disney character of all time is Stitch.
14. My favorite television show of all time is Project Runway.
15. My favorite color is green. I tend to gravitate toward earthy colors in all clothing and decorating.
16. If had an unlimited budget my ideal house attire would come from Pier 1 and Pottery Barn.
17. Anyone else feel like pumping (breast pumping) at work is kind of like taking a smoke break? I mean I don't smoke...but pumping is kind of what I'd imagine a smoke break would be like. You have some privacy and a few minutes to yourself and you feel pretty good afterward.
18. Gift giving is probably my MOST favorite thing in the whole wide world. I think about Christmas and the gifts I want to give pretty much year round.
19. My favorite painting of all time is "The Kiss" by Gustav Klint.
20. I lovah lovah love singing. Especially in silly voices...even if I don't sound like Mariah Carey.
..........................Be a man. You must be swift as a coursing river...with all the force of a great typhoon...with all the strength of a raging fire MYSTERIOUS AS THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON.
And now you all have that song in your head.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012


Whoa, you guys!
I was totally having a crap day today. Oh yeah.
Like I was on the verge of tears. It was totally awesome.
Just lots of stuff happening at once and I would fix one thing and then another thing would pop up.
The breaking point had to be when my car started to sound like it was DYING. No joke.
Like it sounded like a cat made of metal had crawled up under my right tire and was dying a really slow and painful, painful death.
It freaked me out, especially because that is our family car right now. The car we HAVE to use for everything. So I drove it to the shop and as I drove people were looking at my crazy, dying cat sounding car.
The car place drove me back to work and I sat down at my desk and just felt completely overwhelmed.

But then two amazing things happened:
1. The car place called. It was only a rock that had gotten wedged up in my tire. No charge and no dead cat made of metal. It must have been a freaking huge rock to make that noise!
2. Someone stopped by my office with not one, but two chocolate chip cookies just for me.

Now, generally, as a rule I don't eat sugar during the week. But it was like God understood I was overwhelmed and needed a little reassurance. Reassurance in the form of healthy cars and cookies.
God was all like, "Hey, I can see that my favorite redhead is a little stressed right now. I know, I will send her good news AND sugar to let her know I'm thinking of her!"

So I ate them. I ate them both and I didn't feel the least bit guilty about it.

Moving on.
Yesterday I had an event occur that made me question the color of my hair.
(Red if you didn't already know)
As some of you know from my past posts, we have what I like to call meth deer in our neighborhood and pretty much our entire yard.
Let me explain our situation a little bit before I explain what meth deer are. The house next door to us is completely vacant and unused. An elderly couple used to live there, but they have both passed away and the children haven't done anything with the house. So there it sits. Unused and uncared for. Oh and the deer think that yard is their party place. They throw some pretty raucous parties in that yard, and when they've drunk too much of their deer beer they spill over into our yard. Our house sits on a double lot so we have a huge yard and the deer like to carry their shenanigans and pebble shaped poop onto our property.
I'm not okay with this.
So I know you're wondering, "What are meth deer?"
Meth deer have one or more broken body parts from either being hit by a car, slipping on ice or trying to get through a fence. They walk around with one leg flailing or with half of an ear until they either get an infection and die or the city puts them out of their misery. More often than not the city just lets them die which is frustrating and sad.
Meth deer have patchy fur. Their head fur looks really healthy, but then they have hair missing along their bellies, legs or sides.
Meth deer are inbred and look funny. There is one buck whose antlers are so, so pitiful. One antler looks like a rams horn because of the way it curls and the other is toothpick thin and all wonky on his head. They also stare at you with a glassed over look.
Meth deer are mean. They have attacked my dog and charged at us all summer. One deer stalked me all the way around the block and charged at me twice. It was kind of scary because it was at night and I was alone and didn't have anything on me but for my cell phone.
Meth deer aren't really afraid of you and don't respond to apples being thrown at them, balls being thrown at them, water being thrown at them or my husband running straight at them.

Right now the only thing that works with the meth deer when they are in our yard is walking toward them with a shovel or a rake and waving it in the air.
Yesterday there was a big ole buck in my yard and being that it was snowing and I had shoveled my walkway, I grabbed my bright yellow shovel and walked out in to the yard.
I started waving it around and yelling at the evil thing. He looked at me and snorted a little, but didn't move.
So I walked closer and waved the shovel above my head. He got up and gave me the look that said, "One step closer and I'm going to impale you with my antlers."
So I stopped. I was right next to a tree so I took my shovel and whacked that tree as hard as I could.
Well, that worked and it scared him and he started to slowly move out of my yard.
But, remember how I mentioned that it had been snowing? Yeah, it snowed a lot and me whacking that tree caused all of the snow to fall off the branches and on to me.
I was covered from head to toe in snow.
It surprised me too. I was too focused on the deer to notice, so I squealed and apparently that noise freaked the deer out because once I did that he bolted out of our yard and across the street.
I was so drenched I had to trudge inside and throw my clothes in the dryer and towel off my hair.

I laughed about it afterward, but man oh man that could only happen to me.
The things we do just so our dogs can go out to go potty.


Me: Caderyn, what is your favorite color?
Caderyn: Red
M: What is your favorite food?
C: Mandarin Oranges
M: What is your favorite drink?
C: Lemonade. Mommy do we have lemonade?
M: No. Mommy will have to get some from the store.
C: Yeah, cause I love lemonade!
M: What is your favorite treat?
C: A sucker.
M: What is your favorite thing to do?
C: Watch the trains.
M: What is your favorite animal?
C: A sheep.
M: Why a sheep?
C: Because they are.
M: What do you want to be when you grow up?
C: A bagpiper.
M: Why that?
C: Because they are noisy.
M: Who is your favorite friend?
C: My brother (he says it brudder), Gabriel.

And my heart melts.

Caderyn has also started saying some gems that I KNOW are coming from me.
Last night he added a "You know it" after one of his sentences. I burst out laughing.
This morning he replied with a "Are you kidding me" emphasis on the kidding when I told him he got to wear his snow suit.
He's also very interested in Santa and can barely contain his excitement for Halloween.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


Caderyn woke up last week with a horrible case of strep throat. He cried a lot and that hurt his throat so he cried more and I just felt so helpless. So on Friday I packed myself and the boys up and off we went to Great Falls so my fabulous in laws could help me keep my sanity (thank you!). I didn't think I could stand another weekend without my husband and another weekend by myself with the kids. Here is a conversation that took place in the span of about 5 minutes while I was packing that day.
Caderyn: Mommy, what are you doing?
Me: I'm packing so that we can go to Great Falls and see Mema and Papa.
Caderyn: Oh Mommy! That makes my heart so happy!
Me: I'm glad your heart is so happy bud.
Caderyn: Mommy, do you hear that?
Me: Huh?
Caderyn toots really loud. Yep. He did.
Me: !!!!!!!!
Caderyn: Oh Mommy, now my heart and my tummy are happy!
My child is basically turning into my husband. Lord save me.

Friday, October 19, 2012

IPHONE LATELY 10.12-10.19

1. Miss Princess in the sunshine. 
2. Playing games with the firemen at the VA's Fire Awareness Day.  
3. Learning more about fire safety with his buddy Denny. This was cool, they had a fireman in all of his equipment and he talked to the kids about how he might look scary with all of this stuff on, but it was really important that they knew he was trying to help. Then they dry iced the room and had all this kids climb out the window and down the slide.  
4. Super, super happy guy.  
5. This kid cracks me up. Doesn't it look like he's saying, "Mema might be holding me now, but don't you go anywhere because I need to eat soon!" 
6. The couch wasn't big enough for the both of us.
8. My jumping bean 
9. Sweet Giblet.  
10. On a walk we passed this sign...I honestly don't know what to say.  
11. Playing in leaves on our fall walk.  
10. The cutest little soccer player.  
11. Can you spot my favorite little guy over the age of three?  
12. "If I could just get the whole fist in my mouth..." 
13. Mommy snuggles 
14. Attack of the licky dog! 
15. Me: Hey Lucy, whatcha lookin' at?
Lucy: Nothin'. What you lookin' at?
Me: Nothin'.
Lucy: Actually I'm looking at stars.  
16. The neediest corgi on the entire planet.  
17. Part of Caderyn's Halloween costume came in the mail yesterday. Hint: It's not the dinosaur shirt or the envelope. 
18. Tired mommy. Tired baby.  
19. Matchmaker matchmaker make me a match...

Thursday, October 18, 2012


Last night Caderyn had a tummy ache and kept waking up to run to the bathroom off an on until the wee hours of the morning.
This episode of our lives concluded with him dry heaving, hovering over the toilet for a few minutes this morning.
And then he was fine.
I was exhausted.
But he was fine.

So I chugged a cup of coffee, got everyone dressed and out the door and headed to work.

Last night, my mom said she didn't know how I did it.
Did this by myself. Raising two kids, working full time and just kept going every day.
I'm tired.
I'm frustrated.
I'm lonely.
I miss my husband.
I'm continually worried about money and bills.
I'm an adult...I guess.

I'm a single parent and yet I'm not.
I have a great support system and yet I'm alone.

But, whatever. I wouldn't do me or my family any good to just shut down.
Life goes on. Things need to be accomplished.

Our current situation is definitely teaching me certain things about life, and here are my thoughts.
1. Single parents are amazing. I have so much respect for people who are going to school, working and raising children by themselves.
2. I value the time with my husband so much more now than I used to. I also appreciate his help so much more now when he is around.
3. Now operating on my income only, I am amazed at how Jeff and I used to blow our paychecks when we were both bringing in substantial income. We could have lived like kings! And yet, we lived paycheck to paycheck spending money on silly things. Never will we do this again.
4. Budgeting is my best friend and my worst enemy.
5. I can do it all. But I also need help.

C'est la vie. Things may be hard now, but I know they will get better.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


CLUE #1: One is an animal...kind of. The other is not.

Clue #2: One lives in the water. The other lives on land.

CLUE #3: One is a myth. The other is real.

CLUE #4: One is stealthy and rarely seen. The other is excessively noisy and very often seen.

CLUE #5: Both of them deal with my favorite country. This one HAS to be kind of obvious if you know me.
Princess Fluffy's Halloween costume this year.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012


My sweet little Giblet.
Has it really just been four months since you came into our lives?
Your short existence on this earth feels so normal to me.
It feels like all along you were meant to be here.
You were meant to be in my arms or snoring loudly next to me.
You were meant to have your cheeks kissed excessively by your Mommy and your brother until they are nearly raw.
You were meant to be smiling at everyone you meet or looking squishy faced and serious at something new to your world.
You were meant to be Caderyn's younger brother and our second child.
Everything about you just feels so right.
Everything about you is wonderful.
I can honestly not really remember what my life was like before you and your brother came along.
I remember bits and pieces of that life. I think I was a little skinnier and a little more rested, but I was also an incomplete woman.
Incomplete in that you and Caderyn were not yet a part of my life.
Now, with the two of you here, my life and joy feel endless.
It's crazy to think that nearly a year ago we were JUST pregnant with you. A year ago to this week I was heading to Phoenix to tell Mimi and Papa Swan our news about you.
Isn't that crazy!
Isn't it so crazy to think that we almost didn't have you because of those scary first couple of weeks?
Relive that crazy time here and here and here.
It's hard for me to read those first two posts that I wrote. My life and emotions at that time felt so raw.
A lot of tears were shed for you during that time. I remember so much emotion at the thought of not having you. So much emotion that even now, as I write this, I'm getting overwhelmed because of how thankful I am that the sickness passed and out of the darkness came the most wonderful gift.
You are my buddy.
Heck, you are everyone's buddy.
You love to smile at everyone and everything.
You think you are pretty funny.
Your hair fell out and turned a very light brown, but now its getting dark again. There are hints of red in it. Mommy still has high hopes you might be more auburn than brown. Oh please. Oh please!
You have a bald spot on the back of your head from where you lay.
You have the cutest little cheeks that I love smooching and nibbling on.
When you are fascinated with something or appear to be concentrating harder than usual you stick your cheeks out far and purse your little lips in determination.
You are a mover and a shaker. You just never sit still. You whip your head one way to look at one thing and a second later you are whipping it around the other way to see another thing. It's funny, even in my tummy you were just as busy.
You are still working toward holding yourself up all on your own. You do really well looking up from my shoulder for about 3-5 minutes and then you start to wiggle and shake before doing a face dive into my chin, nose of shoulder.
You love, love, love your hands. You are usually looking at them, talking to them, or chewing on them.
You suck your pointer and middle finger on your right hand when comforting yourself.
You are the noisiest eater and self soother.
You snort and you slurp over everything.
You love to stretch and kick your little legs as far as they will go when Mommy is changing your diaper. You stretch them out all the way to the very tips of your toes and then you whip them in close to your tummy and usually let out a happy shriek. It's almost like you're saying, "Whee, I'm naked!"
You are probably the gassiest baby I know (and I don't mean that you burp a lot...I wish).
I'm pretty sure you're going to be a goofball. You have that little gleam in your eye that just screams "Oh Mommy! Just you wait! I'm going to be a stinker!"
You love to hear your voice. Oh my how you love to hear your voice. You are a chatter box and always have to put your two cents in.
You are getting very strong and have mastered tummy time. You've also started rocking and have ended up on your sides a couple of times. Next up, you'll be rolling.
You are starting to focus on toys now and try to touch and feel them.
I'm 95% sure you're still teething. When I'm nursing you I'm about 99% sure you're teething.
You make me laugh every single day.
I keep telling people that if every baby I could have was like you I would probably never stop having kids.
You are patient and very good natured.
Cute 4-month-old picture overload!