A few years ago, I was one of those people that put up "What I'm Thankful For" each and every day. I tried it again the year after and just found myself getting irritated with pretty much everything. It was too material- how many times can I say I'm thankful for coffee, movies, or cute boots. It felt too repetitive- of course I'm thankful for my family, they are awesome. Duh!
It just didn't feel...sincere, yes, that might be the right word, when I broadcast it to all of...Facebook. There, I think that's probably the nicest way I can put it. It felt so silly and petty. Now some people can post for days and years what they are thankful for, but not me. It felt silly, plus I'm kind of getting over the whole "Facbook needs to know EVERYTHING I'm doing" phase.
I mean, that's what I have a blog for now anyways...right?
This past year has been a hard one for our family. I don't need to get into a lot of detail, but, yeah, this year has been one tough cookie. Pretty much every area of our lives have been tested this past year. Marriage, heart strength, patience, finances...the list goes on.
I've found myself thinking a lot about this past year. I've actually been sitting on my couch when the kids are in bed and thinking about the day, the week, the month, and the year. I never just sit.
I've sat and wondered about the past, the present, and our future. Some nights, the thoughts consume me and I've woken up in the middle of the night covered in sweat and my heart racing.
But we're still here. We're still moving forward each and every day.
And for that I am thankful.
Some days it is easy to give in to the negative. It is easy to surround yourself with the dark cloud and all too easy to find that self pity. Oh how I loathe the self pity! Go back to your corner self pity, no one invited you!
As 2013 begins to wind up, I am thankful we made it through this year.
I am thankful to have learned the things we've learned, both the good and the bad.
I am thankful, as always, for my family.
I am thankful for my children, this year has been proof that they are truly gifts.
I am thankful for my mental strength, this year it was put to the test.
And probably the most important thing I am thankful for is the future.
We don't know what awaits us, but I am positive (I've got this feeling, yo) that things will only go up from here.
And now, a funny video: